I've never like asking for help...
Posted: Fri Aug 24, 2007 3:51 am
I really don't like asking for help, it's not that I'm terribly proud or anything, I'm just nervous about really telling people anything, but...What the Hell, I'll give it a shot.
So, to start off, since the day I've been born, I've lived all but 2 of the United States, 4 provinces in Canada, and lived in Greece, Russia, Mexico, Columbia, England...You get the idea, due to my father's job. Because it's sort of become common to not stay anywhere for more then 6 months, I've kind of gotten used to being around new people and making friends rather quickly. My problem is, I've learned never to get "Attached" to anyone, mainly because I know I'll be leaving again in a month or two. So, finally, we move somewhere and I let my guard down and get very close to a many people, especially one girl in particular. Unfortunately, after becoming close to her, I find out that SHE'S moving, and I'll probably never see her again. I don't know what to do now. I've developed TERRIBLE fear of abandonment issues from my life, and I might be on the verge of a total mental breakdown. If I was leaving, sure it'd hurt, but I'd get over it, I've done it before, but...Now that things are reversed...I don't know what to do.
I'm dangerously close to giving up on people forever...
So, to start off, since the day I've been born, I've lived all but 2 of the United States, 4 provinces in Canada, and lived in Greece, Russia, Mexico, Columbia, England...You get the idea, due to my father's job. Because it's sort of become common to not stay anywhere for more then 6 months, I've kind of gotten used to being around new people and making friends rather quickly. My problem is, I've learned never to get "Attached" to anyone, mainly because I know I'll be leaving again in a month or two. So, finally, we move somewhere and I let my guard down and get very close to a many people, especially one girl in particular. Unfortunately, after becoming close to her, I find out that SHE'S moving, and I'll probably never see her again. I don't know what to do now. I've developed TERRIBLE fear of abandonment issues from my life, and I might be on the verge of a total mental breakdown. If I was leaving, sure it'd hurt, but I'd get over it, I've done it before, but...Now that things are reversed...I don't know what to do.
I'm dangerously close to giving up on people forever...