Revisiting the past
Posted: Mon May 10, 2010 1:06 am
I hope I went for the right sub-board, since this is also Sum 41 and music related but kind of in a personal way.
I'm not really looking for help or anything, I just wanted to share some of my recent thoughts.
It's also a good example of what's so amazing about the internet and technology today, the durability of information, so here we go:
I was curious about my first posts ever on this site and I found this topic about Underclass Hero and read myself through the entire topic again in no time, taking a little trip down memory lane (I think it's quite interesting, so go for it if you have the time)
Doing that made me realize, how incredibly much our own life situation affects our perception of music. At that time, With Me and Best Of Me were songs that I always skipped when listening to Underclass Hero, because I thought they were boring and the sound was annoying. I was enjoying simple life, partying with friends, making my first proper rockband experiences, studying audio engineering and making plans to move out of my parents place along with my best friend from back in school. So this was summer 2007, a couple of months before meeting the girl I would hopelessly fall in love with. That was when I began listening to With Me a lot and also to the whole album again and again because it was a such a nice ride and the song fit in perfectly. I even "wrote" a piano song that sounds kind of similar. But I was so blindly in love, I didn't notice I was about to be stabbed in the back and when I did, it was too late. I won't go into detail about what happened, but it lead to me having a mental breakdown, losing my job, having to quit studying, being kicked into a deep depression, losing all my "friends" and pretty much everyone else who I thought meant anything to me, either failed or abandoned me (with the exception of my little brother, who I'm glad didn't really have an idea what was going on). I was at the edge of life last year and all I can say is I'm lucky to be still around.
So, when I try to listen to With Me today, I can only feel a sickening mix of sadness, hate and anger build up until I shut it off. I can laugh at or make fun of other love songs, but not that one. Funny thing is I can stand listening to Always, because it wasn't out before things turned ugly, so I related to it differently. I don't really enjoy it, but I like to play along on the drums occasionally.
I wonder how that compares to Derycks feelings about those songs, because I tried playing that piano song again once and ... well, let's say the result was wet, but not in a happy way, lol.
I don't really have a conclusion or question but if you managed to read through all of this, I'd like to hear what you agree/disagree or relate with otherwise.
I'm not really looking for help or anything, I just wanted to share some of my recent thoughts.
It's also a good example of what's so amazing about the internet and technology today, the durability of information, so here we go:
I was curious about my first posts ever on this site and I found this topic about Underclass Hero and read myself through the entire topic again in no time, taking a little trip down memory lane (I think it's quite interesting, so go for it if you have the time)
Doing that made me realize, how incredibly much our own life situation affects our perception of music. At that time, With Me and Best Of Me were songs that I always skipped when listening to Underclass Hero, because I thought they were boring and the sound was annoying. I was enjoying simple life, partying with friends, making my first proper rockband experiences, studying audio engineering and making plans to move out of my parents place along with my best friend from back in school. So this was summer 2007, a couple of months before meeting the girl I would hopelessly fall in love with. That was when I began listening to With Me a lot and also to the whole album again and again because it was a such a nice ride and the song fit in perfectly. I even "wrote" a piano song that sounds kind of similar. But I was so blindly in love, I didn't notice I was about to be stabbed in the back and when I did, it was too late. I won't go into detail about what happened, but it lead to me having a mental breakdown, losing my job, having to quit studying, being kicked into a deep depression, losing all my "friends" and pretty much everyone else who I thought meant anything to me, either failed or abandoned me (with the exception of my little brother, who I'm glad didn't really have an idea what was going on). I was at the edge of life last year and all I can say is I'm lucky to be still around.
So, when I try to listen to With Me today, I can only feel a sickening mix of sadness, hate and anger build up until I shut it off. I can laugh at or make fun of other love songs, but not that one. Funny thing is I can stand listening to Always, because it wasn't out before things turned ugly, so I related to it differently. I don't really enjoy it, but I like to play along on the drums occasionally.
I wonder how that compares to Derycks feelings about those songs, because I tried playing that piano song again once and ... well, let's say the result was wet, but not in a happy way, lol.
I don't really have a conclusion or question but if you managed to read through all of this, I'd like to hear what you agree/disagree or relate with otherwise.